I think you read to much into what others think, if you are having fun, and feel you are progressing, then you should be happy...
Well...I don't care much for what other people think
, but I do care about what more experienced riders see
And last time I got a few really good pointers that helped me a lot with my progress.
I'm an ok learner, and I'll use whatever it takes to learn faster: Classes, privates, online videos, forums, blogs... Right now I've become about as good as my girlfried - she's more experienced, controlled and stable, but I'm faster and more (park) gutsy. Looking forward to overtaking her and making her feel she needs to start pushing herself for real.