I hate to post sad things in this forum, as this place is not designed for that. But I really need to vent out and I don't have anyone to vent out too. So here it goes...
Things took a turn for the worse, she is hanging on from a string. Last she almost died when they disconnected the oxygen to see if she could breath correctly. Now they are taking about opening a small whole in her throat to help her breath better. I don't want to see her suffer so much, I have mental thoughts of what she must be going through. I heard when she is desperate she moves the half of the body that is not paralyzed like crazy (she is in a somewhat conscious/unconscious/disorientated state). this is killing me
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Today my mom said something that left me out of breath for a few seconds, we were taking about the past about her, like about good memories. next thing I know she said this "yeah before she died and so on.....", after she said that I told her, shes not dead. What really scares me now, is that my mom is like a witch everything she says tends to always happen
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So many things are happening in the middle of this process, most everyone is fighting with each other for no reason
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She is an older lady, at this point I want her to rest to be in peace. But the idea of her dying does not process in my brain, this is the first time of my life I have to confront a situation like this and I feel useless.
Her favorite granddaughter is going to visit her tomorrow (she lives in another city and is in finals in the university) thats why she could not make it before. I cannot imagine what's going to happen to her when she sees her grandma like that
I wish I could do something about it.....
once again I am sorry about posting here about my personal issues, but I have no one to vent too, an yet I have to remain strong for my mom.