i say this out of love:
YOU ARE A MUG, YOU MUG!
Brit., informal a stupid or gullible person........ thanks for calling stupid
, out of love
as you said, you had a busy day lined up for today, and yet last night, you were technicolour yawning on the big white telephone.
it is called a self indulgent path to destruction.
your family situation is for whatever reason provoking less than happy mental feelings. this is obvious but not tangible. for you, what is tangible, is a twisted stomach, a throbbing head, vomit in your nose and being one step closer to saying 'oh no! i am becoming the bastard my father was!'
I could not agree more with you, but at this point I have grab my bags and move on. Things are not easy and well to put it a way last two month have been a complete disaster. I am quite aware that getting drunk will not solve any of them, why do i do it? who knows...
well if that is what you want for yourself, then fine. frankly it smacks of self obsessed nonsense to me, not only coz you do it; but then you write about it in here. feel better now?
. But on the other hand I had a dream last night that I been wanting to have for about 5 years and it was so fucking real. So at least it was not all bad.
this said, and don't stress my words, they are there to stimulate thought in your aching mind! i mean no offence. just 1 fact for you:
humans are uber intelligent, in that they have remarkable perceptive skills. booze and narcs are used by us (more than any other creature) to skew this perception, to earn us a break from 'reality'.
it solves nothing, but gives us a brief 'time out'. so getting fucked up on anything is natural, but it is not a solution to life's trials and tribulations, coz when you are bollocksed, you are not in 'real life'.
The funny thing is that myself I am actually a clean person (to a point), at 25 I am yet to use any illegal drug. I know that I am very vulnerable person and have a extremely addictive personality so I have decided to stay away from any of them.
To be honest I was waiting for your Brit response
, you always have a way of saying things, some amusing and some not so. This one was right on the dot and a much as I would love to tell you "FUCK YOU", I know I cant because you are 100% percent right on your writing.
Thanks for the input