It really is sad. I tried many times to stop playing competitive (tournament style) paintball but no matter what I did, I couldn't turn off the fire to play as hard as possible and against the best there was out there. Inevitably within a few months I'd be back on the tournament scene or guesting with different teams at different events and as always the political and monetary BS would arise. Eventually one day I just packed up my gear bag and somehow I knew it'd be my last time playing. That was around 4 years ago. I haven't looked back.
In retrospect, I stopped loving the game long before I stopped playing it.. But when you're good at something it can be tough to stop.
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