big S carve before the jump, wind up, try to take off right as you become straight with the jump. Don't throw it hard, if you get your carve right, it should be enough to carry you with a small rotation of its on a decent size jump. Smaller jump, faster you need to spin. If your having trouble popping, well... don't pop? You shouldn't have to, take a little more speed and slide off that baby. If you want to pop, right as you straighten out of the carve come up the lip, pop BEFORE you start turning. So pop, unload ur wind up, look over your shoulder, spot your landing, and you should be good. Remember to take off slightly on your toe edge coming out of the carve. Should be pretty much it. As for the fear thing, well theres not much we can do. I hate to say it but your just gonna have to get over it.