Decided I needed to make another post, the last one was too negative.
I hit it.
I sat at the top for a good 3ish minutes getting myself pumped up, and then decided -fuck it, let's just do it, knuckle it, and roll over. I hit the first one, straight airing the whole day, and landed deep because I forgot to speedcheck and straightlined it. I scrubbed a bunch of speed, and then went for the second one. I popped off it, made sure I wasn't going to land in the back seat, tucked up, and ended up landing backfoot on the knuckle, and didn't fall, but just took the blow, and pretty much sat in between my knees.
Second time I hit it, there was no hesitation at the top, although I hit the knuckle again.
Third time I hit it, there was no hesitation, and I landed nice and deep in it, rode off with a smile.
Now, I just need to get the confidence to do more than shifties and grabs off bigger jumps.